Feeling Like the Joker with the Permanent Smile

So pretty much everyone knows I’ve been dabbling in modeling and doing some casting calls and all that jazz. I’ve also been doing promotions which I find fun, but not as creative and I’ll get into everything later one, but this is just my portfolio expansion and my feelings on it.

Ever since I graduated college I haven’t been able to write or draw, why I have no idea, but I have feelings that I need to express, and I guess that doing this is my way of accomplishing that.

The things I’ve done have been a park shoot, very cutesy smiley floral and pretty pretty. I’ve done a “softer side in a cemetery” where it was cute, but there isn’t a lot of serious stuff, or non smiley stuff, that came out of it. The last photo shoot I’ve done was an implied festish one, where I have yet to see the photos and am furious with the photog and will never in a million years work with that person again.

But out of those I realized, I want to not be so freaking smiley. I want to be edgy and funky, and serious. I want that crazy makeup or the soft serious in the ambient light. That’s what I want, no more smiling.

So I scheduled a shoot, where I won’t be able to smile. No my mouth won’t be taped but it just won’t fit the character. It’s going to be a “Romance Novel Cover” type setting. With the flowy dresses and barefoot in the woods and period makeup, which I still have to figure out. The coolest thing is the final look, with a blood red ball gown gemstones, big fluffy eyelashes and crazy makeup. That’s what I’m hoping it’ll be anyways. Just something different from the smiling faces.

I feel good doing these, expressing myself. I only try to do one free shoot a month, and this one is it for August. I have one lined up for September where it’s visual art, like weird colors and abstract poses and props.

I never want to repeat myself when I do a shoot, and I want to expand my facial expressions along with my range of motion. I want to expand my portfolio and be able to look back and see…look what I did…and maybe some day someone will pay to utilize me.

<3 Mrs. D