Past Present & Future

So this weekend I had a blast. I went to my hometown to go hunting and Friday night I went and hung out with my oldest friend. Well, she’s not my oldest fried, I have just known her since I was 5 years old.

We were having drinks and just got to talking. We talked a lot about everyone she saw last weekend at the bar, and how we missed a lot of people. There were people we never wanted to see again, people who thought they were too good for us, and people we never thought we’d see again.

Then we brought up Joey. Who is always in our hearts and on our minds, it was just ironic we both thought of him at the same exact time. All the memories, of the fun times, we all had at school. It’s just crazy it’s going to be 10 years soon.
We talked about our lives. About how I want to have a kid in 5 years and don’t want to move back to my parents town or to my husband’s hometown. I love where we live, the people, the place, it’s just perfect to raise a child. And we talked about her pending divorce.

It’s funny, well not really, I have a lot of friends who are going through divorce’s right now. My partner, married 15 years 3 kids. My sorority sister, married 10 years 2 kids. My friend married 1.5 years no kids. And my husband’s friends, one married 6 months, 1 kid and dated for 8 years, and one married 1 year no kids. Their’s I expected and feel terrible about. He loves her but is just rude, and she just up and left 3 months ago and ran away with another man. We were at their wedding. And I saw the signs, she didn’t want to get married, she left him twice when they were engaged.

It just makes me wonder. Will we make it? We’ve been together for 6 years, fought every once in awhile but never broke up. Have sex very regularly. Love to fool around and go out and just admire one another. So I always wonder, are we going to be ok. I think we will be, I pray we will be, but it’s not something that I dwell on.

Because I know whatever happens in our life happens. It just makes you think, about everything, that has happened in your life and wonder what will happen in your life.

Peace <3>