Yearly Birthday Thoughts!

I’m writing now. I know it’s been 3 weeks since I wrote something last. Nothing new has really happened except me contemplating and thinking a lot about what I’m doing and where I’m going. SO this is going to be a long one!

Today is my 27th birthday so I think it’s a good time to go write something and just to get it all out there.

I have been trying to be healthy conscious, all the whole grain, cut out caffeine and the nasty crap that we digest; don’t eat as much candy and definitely don’t snack as much. Pretty much just watch what I eat & I think I have been pretty successful at it. I read labels now when I grocery shop and I’ve made my own granola. My original point was to lose weight. I was working out nightly and doing Zumba and Yoga, but I haven’t worked out in the past week, and I really don’t care! I have lost weight which is crazy because I went out to the bar and had lasagna and cake but besides all that I’ve been doing healthy choices, even at the bar, so the eating right is working. I also realized last night, I have been the same weight and size since I was 19; I can fit into jeans I wore in high school! I’m not fat, I’m not overweight, and I’m actually healthy and a little underweight. So I don’t want to lose anything, I got a great butt and I’m proud of my size 6 stats! I will never be model skinny like the girls in the magazines or some of the fabulous ladies I’ve worked with, but I’m OK with that.

With that said, the whole point was to say that I don’t care if I make it big in this modeling world. It’s Rochester, I don’t want to live in NYC or LA, and I like it here. I’m getting my priorities back on track. I do want to be an awesome engineer, I know where I want to go in this company and I will get there. If I don’t make it big it doesn’t bother me. I am having an awesome time being myself in front of the camera around town and walking the local runways for the local designers. I also love being a model coach. So maybe working behind the scenes will be the next step for me. I still want to be an event coordinator but I would have to do some drastic changes to get there and I’m not sure I want to.

I’m not complacent but I’m very happy with where I am. I love my husband and want to spend more time with him, I want to be less busy, but I want to succeed and get out there. I love the friends I have made and I want to get more involved in a lot of the aspects of runways and behind the scenes.

It’s a new year for me, a new you, and this is my horoscope says will be the year of change, to take what I learned last year and just flourish in it. So we’ll see!!

<3 Mrs. D