It's the last day in April. It's also a Friday. It's 80 and sunny out. Life is Rochester can't get any better...Oh wait I'm in work, I'm hot, and I'm aggrivated. I don't like being told to do something that I stood my ground on, and I stood my ground becuase it is company policy to not give out certain information. So thats what I did. I told my rep NO. Well my rep whined and called the Head Sales Manager and he caved. So I had to calculate and do all this extra work, why, because of whiney old men.
So needless to say, I'm going from here, at 5pm to the bar in my town for an ice cold Gin & Tonic. mmm can't wait.
And tomorrow I'm going shooting to release all this anger....it's been a rough week!!
<3 Mrs D
Friday, April 30, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Social Skills
My social skills, or lack there of, have pegged me as an outsider/loner. I have a small group of friends who I can count on one hand and a large group of acquaintances. But for some reason when people meet me they don’t like me, or don’t want to get to know me.
Why?
I think it’s cause I am shy, at first. I don’t speak up, unless I have a few drinks in me. And I guess I seem closed off, I don’t know though.
I even joined a kickboxing class to meet new people, but that’s not turning out so well. Even though I love the class, Nobody really talks to me.
I want to meet new people my age, to hang out with. That like to dance and go out on a Friday night and just have a goodtime.
If anyone out there knows how I can A. improve my social skills or B. meet friends let me know.
It’s hard when you graduate. My coworkers are all guys in their 40’s and here I’m mid 20’s and trying to meet new people. I’ve compared it to dating, which I haven’t don’t in over 10 years, but that’s what I’m thinking it’s like.
<3 Mrs. D
Why?
I think it’s cause I am shy, at first. I don’t speak up, unless I have a few drinks in me. And I guess I seem closed off, I don’t know though.
I even joined a kickboxing class to meet new people, but that’s not turning out so well. Even though I love the class, Nobody really talks to me.
I want to meet new people my age, to hang out with. That like to dance and go out on a Friday night and just have a goodtime.
If anyone out there knows how I can A. improve my social skills or B. meet friends let me know.
It’s hard when you graduate. My coworkers are all guys in their 40’s and here I’m mid 20’s and trying to meet new people. I’ve compared it to dating, which I haven’t don’t in over 10 years, but that’s what I’m thinking it’s like.
<3 Mrs. D
Monday, April 26, 2010
Gain an Inch
So back in February I got a new doctor, and since I've never gotten my blood checked I figured it might be a good time. Get a genealogy test done and blood work, just to make sure I'm all healthy and that junk.
Well low and behold I'm not healthy. I apparently have a Vitamin D deficiency (as everyone else in Western NY does) and I have a calcium deficiency along with a inactive Parathyroid. So my doc told me that I need to take these calcium supplements twice daily. I don't get why, I already take a multivitamin that is supposed to supply me with 200% my DV of calcium and vitamin D. So I'm thinking that something else is screwed up, like my parathyroids really not working.
Anyways I started taking these pills. Along with this I was working out twice a week doing kickboxing and step aerobics. With in 3 weeks, I gained 6lbs! And not gradually either. It was literally over a 2 day period.
Really! WTF. I don't know where it is on me cause my body hasn't changed but it's pissing me off. I watch what I eat now, and I run daily and I still do kickboxing, and it's still there. I'm thinking maybe it's just muscle that has accumulated but I doubt it. I'm just pissed. I've weighed the same amount for the past 6 years...6 YEARS! I've been healthy and active and always being careful not to overindulge myself.
It's just a self confidence thing. I don't like know that it just shot up there and I don't know why. Is it cause of the damn pills? Cause of muscle? What? I want to know. I see my doctor next month and I'm going to bring it up.
So yea I needed to vent my upset behavior about gaining 6 pounds over night.
yup I'm a temperamental woman.
<3 Mrs. D
Well low and behold I'm not healthy. I apparently have a Vitamin D deficiency (as everyone else in Western NY does) and I have a calcium deficiency along with a inactive Parathyroid. So my doc told me that I need to take these calcium supplements twice daily. I don't get why, I already take a multivitamin that is supposed to supply me with 200% my DV of calcium and vitamin D. So I'm thinking that something else is screwed up, like my parathyroids really not working.
Anyways I started taking these pills. Along with this I was working out twice a week doing kickboxing and step aerobics. With in 3 weeks, I gained 6lbs! And not gradually either. It was literally over a 2 day period.
Really! WTF. I don't know where it is on me cause my body hasn't changed but it's pissing me off. I watch what I eat now, and I run daily and I still do kickboxing, and it's still there. I'm thinking maybe it's just muscle that has accumulated but I doubt it. I'm just pissed. I've weighed the same amount for the past 6 years...6 YEARS! I've been healthy and active and always being careful not to overindulge myself.
It's just a self confidence thing. I don't like know that it just shot up there and I don't know why. Is it cause of the damn pills? Cause of muscle? What? I want to know. I see my doctor next month and I'm going to bring it up.
So yea I needed to vent my upset behavior about gaining 6 pounds over night.
yup I'm a temperamental woman.
<3 Mrs. D
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Dream a Little Dream
Have you ever had a dream? A childhood fantasy you one day wish would come true? Something you wanted to grow up and be? I have.
Growing up I wanted to be 3 things, a singer, a model, and a NASA engineer. At the time I was the lead soprano in elementary school and I had an amazing voice until I started to smoke cigarettes and then that dream went down the crapper. I totally don’t kid myself about that either.
The NASA engineer wasn’t a far stretch. I wanted to design space shuttles. Well I don’t do that now, but I do design industrial equipment. I went to college got my AS in Mechanical Design and my BS in Mechanical Engineering. My parents are proud, my husband is proud, and I am proud. I have a new dream that stemmed off of this one, but I feel like even though it’s not NASA I’m still very happy doing what I’m doing.
Now comes to the last dream, being a model. I was always very skinny and tall. I sprouted like a weed in the 6th grade and haven’t looked back. I’m 5’9” and in my heels I’m 6’2”. Even with my height and my skinniness, people have always told me I’d never be a model. I’m not pretty enough; I need to have realistic dreams. Even when an offer came when I was a teenager it was turned down. I had a job to do and that was work on the farm. And I have to say that the farm is what gave me my shape, my muscles, and helped me stay toned and fit in high school and what I’m striving for now. I used to be able to bench 140, which is now my weight. I will never be that thin again, and if I was I’d probably die, but I went for it. Against everyone I went for my dream and applied to a local agency, and now I am a commercial model.
Will I get any work? I have no clue, but I did it. I went for my dream. My current friends are thrilled for me, giving me advice and are so happy I did it. If I’m ever in a magazine or on a billboard I will definitely post it. But I just wanted to say that those childish dreams we have growing up of being something and doing what we wanted to do, they can still happen even when we become adults.
Never let that little piece of hope fade away. We all grow up sometime, but its those fairytales and memories and dreams on falling stars that keep us going and growing.
<3 Mrs. D
Growing up I wanted to be 3 things, a singer, a model, and a NASA engineer. At the time I was the lead soprano in elementary school and I had an amazing voice until I started to smoke cigarettes and then that dream went down the crapper. I totally don’t kid myself about that either.
The NASA engineer wasn’t a far stretch. I wanted to design space shuttles. Well I don’t do that now, but I do design industrial equipment. I went to college got my AS in Mechanical Design and my BS in Mechanical Engineering. My parents are proud, my husband is proud, and I am proud. I have a new dream that stemmed off of this one, but I feel like even though it’s not NASA I’m still very happy doing what I’m doing.
Now comes to the last dream, being a model. I was always very skinny and tall. I sprouted like a weed in the 6th grade and haven’t looked back. I’m 5’9” and in my heels I’m 6’2”. Even with my height and my skinniness, people have always told me I’d never be a model. I’m not pretty enough; I need to have realistic dreams. Even when an offer came when I was a teenager it was turned down. I had a job to do and that was work on the farm. And I have to say that the farm is what gave me my shape, my muscles, and helped me stay toned and fit in high school and what I’m striving for now. I used to be able to bench 140, which is now my weight. I will never be that thin again, and if I was I’d probably die, but I went for it. Against everyone I went for my dream and applied to a local agency, and now I am a commercial model.
Will I get any work? I have no clue, but I did it. I went for my dream. My current friends are thrilled for me, giving me advice and are so happy I did it. If I’m ever in a magazine or on a billboard I will definitely post it. But I just wanted to say that those childish dreams we have growing up of being something and doing what we wanted to do, they can still happen even when we become adults.
Never let that little piece of hope fade away. We all grow up sometime, but its those fairytales and memories and dreams on falling stars that keep us going and growing.
<3 Mrs. D
Frienemies?
Do I want a frienemy? What is a frienemy? Friday night I agreed to go out for drinks with my friend Mr. A*. I am trying to do what makes me happy and be stress free. So I agreed cause hanging with Mr. A* is fun.
Anyways, he said that we’d have to meet later, and we are. 10pm at Woody’s II. He then told me it would be with a bunch of friends, these friends being Ms. N and her friends. Mr. N & I used to be best friends in high school and have had our differences and have always recovered, even if it took a month or a year we were friends again.
Well 4 years ago we had a falling out, a big one, that I take most of the responsibility for being a floozy and a bitch and just being me at the time and becoming who I am. We both said something’s that were mean and I did something’s that were wrong, utterly wrong, but still at the time I was doing what I do best.
So it’s been 4 years and we’ve only seen each other once since then in passing 2 years ago. I’m really nervous, and Mr. A* said that she said for him to invite me, and I don’t know what to expect. And now the kicker is Mr. A* can’t come, cause he has HW as he’s getting his Masters or MBA, I forgot.
Well I know this is petty and high schoolish, but I’m nervous and anxious and really don’t want drama. I over analyze everything and it’s giving me anxiety. But I would honestly love for her to be back in my life as a friend. She’s even talked with my parents since our falling out.
I’ve talked myself into going still, and I’ve decided if it’s awkward or if something happens I’m leaving as soon as I get there.
But I don’t want us to be frienemies. I don’t want that fakeness. I honestly want a friendship, I just don’t know if she wants one to, or if she never wants to see me again.
We shall see how this goes…and I shall keep you updated….
<3 Mrs. D.
Anyways, he said that we’d have to meet later, and we are. 10pm at Woody’s II. He then told me it would be with a bunch of friends, these friends being Ms. N and her friends. Mr. N & I used to be best friends in high school and have had our differences and have always recovered, even if it took a month or a year we were friends again.
Well 4 years ago we had a falling out, a big one, that I take most of the responsibility for being a floozy and a bitch and just being me at the time and becoming who I am. We both said something’s that were mean and I did something’s that were wrong, utterly wrong, but still at the time I was doing what I do best.
So it’s been 4 years and we’ve only seen each other once since then in passing 2 years ago. I’m really nervous, and Mr. A* said that she said for him to invite me, and I don’t know what to expect. And now the kicker is Mr. A* can’t come, cause he has HW as he’s getting his Masters or MBA, I forgot.
Well I know this is petty and high schoolish, but I’m nervous and anxious and really don’t want drama. I over analyze everything and it’s giving me anxiety. But I would honestly love for her to be back in my life as a friend. She’s even talked with my parents since our falling out.
I’ve talked myself into going still, and I’ve decided if it’s awkward or if something happens I’m leaving as soon as I get there.
But I don’t want us to be frienemies. I don’t want that fakeness. I honestly want a friendship, I just don’t know if she wants one to, or if she never wants to see me again.
We shall see how this goes…and I shall keep you updated….
<3 Mrs. D.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Quartly Update
I wanted to give everyone an update on my New Years Resolutions.
Well lets see how I'm doing..
1. No fast food resturaunts except fo Moes or Five Guys but no more weekly Wendys or Taco Bell. DONE!! So far so good!! It's been hard but I've been very good about the whole no fast food thing. I've been eating salads and fruit and yea doing good.
2. Lose 5 - 10 pounds by actually working out and getting toned. Well...I've been working out consistantly..but I'm not losing any weight. I'm really upset by this. I try to eat healthy just snack at night, and I'm running and doing kickboxing and I'm not losing anything. I am getting somewhat toned which is nice, and for some odd reason I gained 5 pounds about two months ago and it's not going away...I just want to feel better about myself and the whole not seeing anything happen isn't helping.
3. Renew my registration for either the kickboxing or aerobics class when they are done in April, whichever I like better. I have renewed my registration for kickboxing and only missed on class because I was in Jamaica. :-)
4. Go to the log cabin once this summer to see a car show. they haven't started yet..
5. Have a huge cookout at our house. it's finally warm!! so I'm planning one for the 3rd weekend in June
6. Tile my floors. soon...I have done my backsplash though and we are planning on the wood floors and bathroosm so that's gotta count..right?
7. ENJOY MY LIFE i'm getting there. I'm stressed and I don't like myself and semi depressed but I actually love where I am in my life right now and even though my job sucks 3/4 of the time I'm still happy
So that's it. I have accomplished some and others are in progress. Not 100% but still its only been a quarter of the year...8 months to go! <3 Mrs. D
Well lets see how I'm doing..
1. No fast food resturaunts except fo Moes or Five Guys but no more weekly Wendys or Taco Bell. DONE!! So far so good!! It's been hard but I've been very good about the whole no fast food thing. I've been eating salads and fruit and yea doing good.
2. Lose 5 - 10 pounds by actually working out and getting toned. Well...I've been working out consistantly..but I'm not losing any weight. I'm really upset by this. I try to eat healthy just snack at night, and I'm running and doing kickboxing and I'm not losing anything. I am getting somewhat toned which is nice, and for some odd reason I gained 5 pounds about two months ago and it's not going away...I just want to feel better about myself and the whole not seeing anything happen isn't helping.
3. Renew my registration for either the kickboxing or aerobics class when they are done in April, whichever I like better. I have renewed my registration for kickboxing and only missed on class because I was in Jamaica. :-)
4. Go to the log cabin once this summer to see a car show. they haven't started yet..
5. Have a huge cookout at our house. it's finally warm!! so I'm planning one for the 3rd weekend in June
6. Tile my floors. soon...I have done my backsplash though and we are planning on the wood floors and bathroosm so that's gotta count..right?
7. ENJOY MY LIFE i'm getting there. I'm stressed and I don't like myself and semi depressed but I actually love where I am in my life right now and even though my job sucks 3/4 of the time I'm still happy
So that's it. I have accomplished some and others are in progress. Not 100% but still its only been a quarter of the year...8 months to go! <3 Mrs. D
the adventures of home improvements
Did you know that when you put in a kitchen backsplash it is important to read the directios until you understand them? Well I was installing my backsplash and it is up, and cemented and looked great. Then I had to grout...well I misread the directions where it states you can clean immediately then wait 4 hours and wipe off the film. I thought that meant to clean my counter, not the tile. So I cleaned my counter and waited 4 hours to wipe off the film...well I scrubbed half of my kitchen backsplash for 4 hours...4 HOURS!! I had to skip aerobics because I wasn't done yet. OMG never again. Well let me tell you now it looks great. It's all sealed and I just have the edge around my kitchen window to the living room to do..which I will be doing tongiht..but yea omg insane!!
I also realized that it is very difficult to stripe a hallway while standing on a ladder. So the last 5' of my hallway is solid eggshell instead of striped eggshell and flat. You can't tell that wasn't my initial plan so that makes me happy.
I have TONS of photos in frames and our living room looks like a family sitting room. I am also collecting postcards and putting them in different frames for a romantic memory lane in our bedroom. Kitchy but cute and romantic.
I SOLD MY BREAKFASY NOOK!!! Hell's yea and now I have two dark wood hitop tables with 8 saddle chairs. Love it. It looks so modern and nice. We also got rid of the ugly white fan and opted for brushed steel modern track lighting. I picked out my new kitchen fan to match...it has to be very small because it's a tight space that the original is located. I can't wait to pick it up and put it in. All I need now is my bar center my new oven and microwave and the kitchen/dining room is DONE!
All of my plans are coming to fruition. We're putting the hardwood floor in downstairs next month and I have painted and put new fixtures in the upstairs bathroom. Soon we will do the double sink with the new tile flooring.
I have such a huge to do list but it makes me so giddy like Christmas to think about it. I love pretending to be a little Suzy Homemaker and Martha Stewart.
I also realized that it is very difficult to stripe a hallway while standing on a ladder. So the last 5' of my hallway is solid eggshell instead of striped eggshell and flat. You can't tell that wasn't my initial plan so that makes me happy.
I have TONS of photos in frames and our living room looks like a family sitting room. I am also collecting postcards and putting them in different frames for a romantic memory lane in our bedroom. Kitchy but cute and romantic.
I SOLD MY BREAKFASY NOOK!!! Hell's yea and now I have two dark wood hitop tables with 8 saddle chairs. Love it. It looks so modern and nice. We also got rid of the ugly white fan and opted for brushed steel modern track lighting. I picked out my new kitchen fan to match...it has to be very small because it's a tight space that the original is located. I can't wait to pick it up and put it in. All I need now is my bar center my new oven and microwave and the kitchen/dining room is DONE!
All of my plans are coming to fruition. We're putting the hardwood floor in downstairs next month and I have painted and put new fixtures in the upstairs bathroom. Soon we will do the double sink with the new tile flooring.
I have such a huge to do list but it makes me so giddy like Christmas to think about it. I love pretending to be a little Suzy Homemaker and Martha Stewart.
Holy Hell
So it has been almost 3 months since I last posted something new...well I think it's about time. :-) Over the next few days there will be little snipets of thoughts that I'm just going to call backdraft. They will be similar to a backdraft when air comes and the flames explode out..these thoughts will be exploding out of my mind on onto the comptuer screen...so I'm just forworning you all!! Luv Mrs. D
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